Tears warning for my friends who need it. This is a little more serious than normal. There have been many things this past year that I’ve struggled to find the words to express. These are some thoughts about the last year.
I was recently informed about the death of someone who I looked up to like an older brother when I was young. I had not seen him in probably twenty years, and I’m still in a bit of shock over the news. How thin the veil is between life and death. Life really is fragile. Don’t take people for granted. Spend as much time as you can with those you love. One day it will be their time to go and things may go unsaid that should have been said, things that should have been reconciled, will never be in this life. Forgiveness may be fleeting. Regrets may abound. Yet life goes by at a pace that boggles the mind now. Days feel like minutes. Blink and you will miss weeks, months and years.
About a year ago, in January 2020, my husband died on an ambulance. The paramedics were able to revive him and get him to the hospital. God’s timing is perfect, even if it is too close for our comfort. If they had been there 5 minutes later, he probably would not have made it. He had a massive heart attack, a 98% blockage of the LAD. Thankfully, they had the staff and resources to do a cath and stent procedure the same day he went in. The surgery staff had just left for the day, but they were called back to operate on him and did a successful surgery. He was sent home in a few days and started his recovery. Even though it has taken a long time for him to get his strength back. I’m very thankful that God brought him through it, and he is still here with our family.
Some days we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, and God is always faithful to us through that journey. Sometimes it ends in joy and sometimes in sadness for the loss of the fellowship of our loved ones here on earth. But if they have accepted the gift of forgiveness and reconciliation with the Father through Jesus Christ, then we have the blessed hope to see them again in Heaven.
About three months after my husband’s heart attack, our little son Jack was born. The doctor wanted me to go in for an early induction which failed after 12 hours of labor. So I had to undergo an emergency C-Section surgery. It’s one of the scariest things I have had to go through. The recovery was long and difficult. But the Lord brought me through it with a wonderful and healthy little boy.
I don’t know if I have shared how Jack got his name. We felt the Lord wanted us to name him in honor of our dear friend Jack Cochise, who went to be with the Lord the year before. Jack and Michelle have been such a blessing in our lives for the last several years. Jack was like a brother to my husband. Jack had a long battle with cancer and ultimately succumbed to it. My husband communicated with him daily through the last part of his journey and tried to be an encouragement. He is someone that we truly miss and look forward to seeing on the other side of Glory.
Our little Jack’s middle name is Woolsey, in honor of my Grandpa Woolsey. He was one of the strongest men of faith I’ve ever known. I had the honor to walk with him through the last days of this life. I was there when he passed away, along with my Mom and Aunt and Uncle. The night before he passed at home, we sang him hymns, held his hand and were just present there for him. I spend the night on the floor next to the hospital bed in the living room trying to sleep some that night, and he passed away early the next morning. It was one of the saddest days I can remember. I greatly miss my Grandparents, my Mom and other loved ones who have gone on ahead.
But the truth is, for those who believe in Jesus and know him as their Savior, there are much greater things ahead and the hope of a reunion with our loved ones. We are put in this place and time for a reason. There are times where our trials seem great. But in the scope of eternity, they are only temporary.
“For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory,” 2 Corinthians 4:17
There are a lot of people who are fearful right now, and maybe rightly so. There are a lot who are suffering one trial or another, many who are concerned about the direction of our nation. I believe that we are witnessing the breaking down and reset of this world system and the beginning of the end of the ages. We may get a reprieve for a time, an opportunity for revival in our land, an opportunity for people to turn their hearts towards the things of God. But for how long?
What will you do with the time you are given? Will you continue to live as if you have all the time in the world? How much time do you spend seeking the things of God and rejecting the things of this world? How much time do you spend with your loved ones or praying for them?
If you know Jesus as your Savior, then I look forward to seeing you in Heaven one day. God is the only one we can trust for our life here on earth and to get to Heaven. If you don’t know Him as your Savior, then what are you waiting for?
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.” John 3:16-19